Inner workings

God has done so much

2010-11-11T08:35:00.000-08:00

Wow! August 2008! I'm so sorry! God has done so much in my life since that last post!

Last summer I went to Wyoming and came back a different person! He taught me how to know who to trust and that some times I just act dumb! Paul in the bible talks about walking in the flesh and that is what I did that summer! I did not care what my loved ones told me I just did what I thought was right! It took me coming back to all the people I hurt and seeing the hurt to realize what a jerk I was! God patched up all the friendships that I allowed to be torn! I praise God for all the people in my life.
After getting back I began to work in the inner city of North St. Louis with a ministry my Father started called Sun ministries.We were donated a building in the neighborhood of Hyde Park. we started to clean the building out and get it up to code. we started making product and selling it. God has blessed this ministry so much!
During this whole adventure God gave me a friend named Jason Calahan. He became my bestfriend and God eventually brought us together and on September 26 2010 we decided to pursue a relationship. God is building us together and growing us!

So yeah God has so much in my life!

I will try to post more!

~AEG~

Rediscovering You.

2008-08-04T20:15:00.000-07:00

At the beginning of this summer I asked God to show me Him! I went through a time of Him teaching me to be on my own. I went through really hard time were even my Timber Lakes family couldn't help me! It was vary hard to be away from home and going through a storm of life! I told my mom this morning that this summer was God taking twigs by twigs out of the nest so that one day I will be able to go away to collage or be on my own and not miss home so much... I was in the mountains of Colorado and doing my quiet time and the song "Beautiful Sound" by the Newsboys came on my MP3 player. and it hit me like a ton of bricks! God brought me to Timber Lakes and Colorado to rediscover who He is! I grew up in the church I knew all the right things to say and when to say them! but it wasn't until I was 9 till I "got saved". then past that I didn't start living( I mean really live...lay my life down live for the lord) till the last year or so! I didn't know the real God! I didn't know my maker! a week ago tonight I wrote a journal entire about this summer and some things that went on and the last half of it went like this...

Getting to know who You really are
You laughed with me
You cried with me
You held me
You protected me
You guided me
You showed me You!
"Rediscovering You"

"I think I asked You Dad to show me You at the beginning of this summer. And You have! BLESSED BE YOUR NAME!"

it's funny how God answers prayers! no... not funny.... AMAZING!!!

I will leave you with my favorite line of "Beautiful Sound".....or maybe the whole thing! hehehehe....

Turn the page.

Can't turn the light out.

Every word, every line

Carries to my soul.

Dark letters on a page

Singing so loud.

Where did I go wrong

Not to hear You?

Eighteen years,

I guess it was all right.

I let You do the thinking,

I'd just bide my time.

Father to sonSunday hand-me-down.

Where did I go wrong

Not to hear Your song?

It's a beautiful sound

Moving through the crowd.

Voices lifted up

On high for You.

It's a beautiful song.

We've only just begun to understand.

Rediscovering You.

To have found You, and still be looking for You,

It's "the soul's paradox of love."

You fill my cup, I lift it up for more.

I won't stop now that I'm free.

I'll be chasing You

Like You chase me.

It's a beautiful sound

Moving through the crowd.

Voices lifted up

On high for You.

It's a beautiful song.

We've only just begun to understand.

Rediscovering You.

The end.

what God has called me to do with my summer!

2008-05-27T14:46:00.000-07:00

Okay I'm going to start this story off in 2005. I went to a camp in Kansas to work as what they call a "teen staff" I worked in the kitchen and on the grounds crew. This was WAY before my parents even thought about the disciple driven church! I loved it! I loved it so much I was thinking of how to put my life into something like that! The next year I was planing on going back! BUT God told me to sign up for this leaders in training at Calvary church and they sent me to Mexico for a week so we could build a house! I loved it so much I was trying to think of how to put the camp lifestyle into Mexico and whatnot! I went through a year of being discontent and wanting to go back to ether Mexico or Kansas! I finally gave it to God and I finally loved being home in my Missouri. Then my dad leaves my church and shakes up my world and God uses my dad's passion for what he is doing to change my heart! This brings us to 2008, this year!

I start off the year on a Florida beach giving the year to God! then I gave my summer to Him. A month or 2 goes by and I get set free from lots of stuff! One night I have this dream. and in it I get something from the camp I worked at in 05 and its an application and then I pick up a plain piece of paper but I know its another application and the dream ends. My church G.C. was going thought this time of trying to find a place to serve, and we had been having a prayer meeting every week to pray about different things and this one week we were praying about this. A couple weeks before I was having trouble with my spiritual gifts (pastor mercy hospitality and serving) they just didn't feel right! In this week God spoke to me and said "your true heart is in serving people." and my heart agreed! I had always been happy when serving others! This was after I went thought the 7 steps to freedom. I took the spiritual gifts test again at a training that was held in Kansas, and it turns out that I am a serving, hospitality,helps, mercy. The day of this test we were having lunch in the cafeteria and I felt the Holy Spirit tugging at me and I said here I am he said "you are going to work here this summer now go ask!" so I went and asked and so I'm going to work at a camp in Kansas this summer! God confirmed it with bringing that dream back up and told me through my dad that the application I couldn't see was the application to the camp I'm working for this summer! So this is what happens when you give God your summer! Try it some time, your like it!
So hear I am 3 days before I leave wanting to go but SO not wanting to leave my friends and family! Pray for me!

~AEG~

69

2008-04-03T20:50:00.000-07:00

I wrote this poem on the way back from meeting with Richard Green, in Indiana. I often get inspired by Gods creation and this time it was the clouds, and words to a GREAT song(nothing but the blood!). this is a picture that i took of the Indiana sky.

Every bump of 69 gets to me

with every hit you get to me

every lyric of this song gets to me

with every note you get to me

every verse of the bible gets to me

with every line

you get to me

with every thought

you get to me.

P.S. Bob there you go! hope you like it!

Got to love missouri weather!

2008-01-29T19:50:00.000-08:00

So I loved today! really I did! summer 74 and sunny, spring 60 and sunny, fall 50 and rainy, and last but not least winter 12 and snowy! isn't it great!

well I just wanted to post before the end of the month! This year so far has been AMAZING!!Spending new year on the beach was great. God has been confronting me with A LOT of stuff every little thing I hand over to him he gives me something right back! Obedience=blessing! And that is what is going on with me! happy/clear minded/fearless Amy is what you get from now on! you better watch out!

~AEG~

P.S. I got my hair cut! I will try to get pictures up soon!

New year....New book!

2008-01-04T10:31:00.000-08:00

Hey y'all I'm back from Florida! and i just wanted to tell you about my new cook book! it's called The Man's Cookbook! and you can go here and look at it and maybe if you like it you can buy it!

http://stores.lulu.com/store.php?fAcctID=1692412

tell me what you think!

~AEG~

This christmas.

2007-12-20T21:14:00.000-08:00

This Christmas will be different then the rest. I'm a girl of traditions...this year well that's out the window...hahahah....we the Goodwin family(or gang,clan...or whatever you want to call us) are doing Christmas differently this year...
Christmas-eve

we will get up go to church(okay so that's normal)
come home probably play board games with those of us who are home...(also normal)
probably watch a movie.(normal)
eat till we cant move!(normal)

This is were it gets not normal...in parts....

go to bed (without opening 1 present...my favorite tradition)

CHRISTMAS DAY

Wake up and make coffee
open secret Santa(or not so secret to some of us)presents.
eat bagels and cream cheese.
pack the van with our 7 peoples worth of bags (thank God for luggage racks).
then load 7 grown people and a 100 pound dog into a 7 passenger van.
leave for a 15 hour drive to Florida.

wow this Christmas will be great! hehehehe....

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!

P.S. you know what really makes me mad is that it is no longer Christmas morning to the "Gap" it's holiday morning what next????

A lesson from my past.

2007-12-15T21:29:00.000-08:00

A couple weeks ago at my Wednesday night church we had a big breakthrough for this generation and generations to come. It was great for me because I was able to admit that i once had an eating disorder, depression, anxiety, and that I really never liked my-self till this past year when God healed me from it. That night I got home and I wondered to my self... If God healed me from everything that ailed me.... why then do I not read my bible or pray to him? If I cant serve the God who made me then what am i doing calling my-self a christian? this i assure you was not an attack from the devil.... It was a conviction! I went a few days reading my bible and had a few prayers.... I can't help but think of my Dads sugar packet illustration. there is a flesh side and a spirit side.... I have herd this illustration many a times but it never hit me like today..... I have been feeding my flesh side all my life... and barely feeding my spirit side.... I know how to feed my spirit side.... I just don't....why? I don't know....but that has to change! It will change! My sunrise has come!

drawing!

2007-11-13T10:10:00.000-08:00

I drew this awhile ago but JUST found out how to scan things heheheh

All from a quote.

2007-10-28T11:09:00.000-07:00

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. - Babe Ruth

I saw this quote in a movie awhile ago and it never hit me till now but this has to do with the christian walk...think about it... all to many times I'm am afraid to go to talk to someone because I am afraid of them thinking I'm a crazy person... or to talk to a friend about this disipleship movement cause I'm afraid they wont be my friend any more... fear grips us all at one time or another... we must replace that fear with the word of God that will help us go talk to that person about Jesus or that person about the discipleship movement... you must surround yourself with people who are doing so... remodels if you will (in the discipleship movement we call the disciplers) they not only teach you how not to be afraid but they teach you how to walk in the Spirit... and to make sure you are knowing and doing your Spirital disciplines... being in a displeship relationship is VERY improtant.I would never go back to not having one.

computer art

2007-10-25T12:07:00.000-07:00

How Beautiful
a shimmer of light
in a sea of darkness
How beautiful
a child's laugh
in a field of screams
How beautiful
a song a trust
in a world of doubt
how beautiful
a man of faith
in a place of death
how beautiful
an act of love
for a world of hate
how beautiful

How Beautiful

2007-10-08T09:01:00.000-07:00

I was sitting on my back deck star gazing when I felt someone sit next to me. now there was no one there...well no one you could see. You know those thoughts you get that you know aren't yours but God talking to you..yeah i had one right then the conversation went kinda like this...

"thought"-"aren't they Beautiful? I made them"
me- "yeah there amazing... why did you make them?"
"thought"- "I made them for you Amy"
me- tears
hehehe...

as I sat there with this presence I had this poem come to mind!

How Beautiful

a shimmer of light

in a sea of darkness

How beautiful

a child's laugh

in a field of screams

How beautiful

a song a trust

in a world of doubt

how beautiful

a man of faith

in a place of death

how beautiful

an act of love

for a world of hate

how beautiful

life in a new world.

2007-09-11T06:20:00.000-07:00

somewhere between the 4th and 8th episode of lost and the 8 pieces of pizza I realized I have an extended family!
with cousins, aunts, uncles, grandmas, and grandpas! I have gone 7 years without them and now i have them in the body of Christ...the thing is with the body of Christ we are more connected and more deep then my blood extend family EVER was. and it feels good!
Life in the body of Christ, makes me want to be more then just okay!
I love my church and everyone in it! and i feel this is where God truly wants me to be!
as i turn 17 I look back on the last few years I have had my heart broken by a boy...I have had about 6 or 7 "true" friendships fall apart... and i left the church I had gone to since i was 4! alot has happened yet i was NEVER truly deep down to the soul happy. but i would LOVE to tell you I am now! God has given me the best family a girl could ask for and great church family too... I am SO lucky you guys should just start calling me lucky!

~AEG~

sudden realization

2007-09-06T13:48:00.000-07:00

last night was the best church meeting in a long time!it showed me what i needed to work on and what i needed to get over!
well not really get over... a friend hurt me and well we aren't friends anymore and i have always wondered "what did I do?" the answer is nothing! besides stand up for my self... anyway God took her out of my life cause i didn't need her...
a couple months prior to us ending our friendship I asked God to show me what was keeping me from him..or to just take it away! and well after taking it away and a couple months later I found out she was the last bit i was holding onto..we were such good friends that i didn't want to give her up... so as God has done in the past he took it by force... she was the last straw of the package that was my old church and He knew the straw was my favorite straw and as my parent He took it from me before i went and played...I guess what I'm trying to say is even though you may think someone is good for you they may not be....and you need family and friends to tell you so...

GUESS WHO'S WON

2007-08-29T12:40:00.000-07:00

Now that it's on, we're out in the front of this marathon
I never really thought we were in such a big fight, until the other night . You see me and my sister share a room and have all but 4 years of my life! And Saturday she had a friend over and so I was in my room alone! I was getting ready for bed and I turned the light off and all of the sudden I felt this feeling that I was not alone in the room like some one was watching me. This wasn’t the first time that it has happened to me before but normally I let it be and try to go to sleep. but this time it was so strong I couldn’t do that! So I thought this is not of God so I said with as much confidence as I could muster IN THE NAME OF JESUS CHRIST GET OUT! And it left. I was fine! War can be ugly. And this one is going to be big! Cause We're on the enemy's hit list. So step back I'm on a one way track, devil To take back all the things that you've stolen. And with the power of God I'm gonna persevere. 'Cause with my sword drawn you're gonna feel defeat. In this battle only strong survive.

I'm gonna keep fighting till God prevails Cause the alarm has been rung Praise to God has been sung The victory dance has been done The battle's over and GUESS WHO'S WON

Jesus Christ is the Original Superman.

I know I’m his side are you?

bold=lyrics taken from 3 different pillar songs.

One love
One God
Only one way
Amy E. Goodwin

Shouts from the phone.

2007-08-11T23:25:00.000-07:00

this poem was sorta a journal entry, but i was reading it and it sounded more like a poem! To give you a background I had a best friend of 3 years. and it had always been a her dumping her problems on me and never caring about my problems. well after a couple of events that I couldn't stay quiet anymore about I confronted her about it and all I got was her telling me I'm to emotional and that I needed to get over it! so i wrote this poem/entry!

Shouts from the phone

screams of who you are

and who I'm not

tears I cry

mean nothing to you

I raise my voice

Louder

and louder still

your words cut me

like the knife you put in my back.

tell me what you think

One love

One God

Only one way

Amy E. Goodwin

Gossip

2007-07-13T09:49:00.000-07:00

I wrote the poem when I was in my Gossip infested small group at my old church... I didn't like all the drama that went on there... and when I tryed to keep some friends from that group gossip and drama just crept right back into my friendship with them... the only way to get rid of drama and gossip is to surround your-self with Godly friends and not to partake in it... it was hard for me to do this and i still catch my-self doing my share of the gossiping! so read share what you think and yeah so talk to you all later!

It spreads like water
It burns like an unstoppable fire
It goes on and on
It hurts like a knife wound
It spreads like a weed
It goes on and on
It messes with your emotions
It tears relationships apart
It goes on and on
It you can never trust
It plays with your mind
It goes on and on
It causes problems
It you can never stop
It goes on and on
It divides groups
It is wicked
It goes on and on
It is all these things
and
It goes on and on

One love

One God

Only one way!

Amy E. Goodwin

4th of july!!!!

2007-07-04T08:19:00.000-07:00

The Star Spangled Banner

By Francis Scott Key 1814

Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light

What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?

Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,

O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?

And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,

Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.

Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave

O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

On the shore, dimly seen through the mists of the deep,

Where the foe's haughty host in dread silence reposes,

What is that which the breeze, o'er the towering steep,

As it fitfully blows, half conceals, half discloses?

Now it catches the gleam of the morning's first beam,

In full glory reflected now shines in the stream:

'Tis the star-spangled banner! Oh long may it wave

O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

And where is that band who so vauntingly swore

That the havoc of war and the battle's confusion,

A home and a country should leave us no more!

Their blood has washed out their foul footsteps' pollution.

No refuge could save the hireling and slave

From the terror of flight, or the gloom of the grave:

And the star-spangled banner in triumph doth wave

O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

Oh! thus be it ever, when freemen shall stand

Between their loved home and the war's desolation!

Blest with victory and peace, may the heav'n rescued land

Praise the Power that hath made and preserved us a nation.

Then conquer we must, when our cause it is just,

And this be our motto: "In God is our trust."

And the star-spangled banner in triumph shall wave

O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave!

Have a great 4th everyone!!!

The Beach

2007-06-28T22:26:00.000-07:00

I like this poem Alot so i hope you do to!

The sea so vast

Like your love

The sands are so many

Like my sins

The sky so big

Like your power

The plam trees shade me

Like your wings over me

The diffrent colors of the sunset

Are Like the prayers you answer

The waves rush over me

Like your blood washing me clean

All this you made for me

I wrote theis after the first time my family went to florida(also my first time seeing the ocean) I was amazed at how beautiful it all was!

~AEG~

New at this!

2007-06-23T02:17:00.000-07:00

So i have been thinking about getting me one of these....and look I did hahahaha

I think I'll Just use it to show off my poetry and such, maybe even my long rants I go on so often!

right now I'm listening to "You raise me up" and just listening to the words makes me want to cry! ha I know I'm a very emotional person but oh my goodness it speaks to me like God himself is speaking to me! If you guys don't mind I'm gonna "pick it apart" in my own way...I'm gonna tell you what it means to me!

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me

this first part is kinda self explanatory.but just to think when things are at their vary worst we just sit and wait for God him self to come and comfort us! it blows me away the he creator of the universe will just come and sit with ME of all people! hahaha...

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.

I don't know about you but i know the feeling of being on top of the world- I was a kid not to long ago -it is the BEST feeling in the world to fear nothing and know nothing can harm you. but some times we need to have our heavenly father to lift us up there and remind us how it feels to be that fearless little kid on top of the monkey bars!
to walk on water is something for peter and Jesus hehehe...
I remember when my father would put me on his shoulders i felt his strength and i knew he was protecting me every minute I was up there!

There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.

I think the writer is talking about there is no life that one doesn't feel hungry for the word of God!
I feel some times I can almost hear heaven because I want Jesus to come back for his children!

And that is what i feel every time I hear this song!